I'm not stalker, I'm just an unpaid investigator

It has been almost 3 months since I have been dating with him. He was in a serious relationship with a girl for several months before me .They broke up 1 year plus before we started dating. They are not in contact and my bf is surely over her. The problem is ... I stalk her...I have checked my bf''s tagged photos to see what type of relationship they had. As much as he loves me I feel insecure sometimes that they had a great relationship and it makes me compare. It's not harming my relationship in any way but I feel guilty doing so. I know every girl out there does it too. Every girl!! No matter how much she denies it, they did stalked their bf’s ex/ ex’s current gf on Facebook/Instagram/Twitter. Honestly stalking their past will do nothing but harm me. *facepalm* I feel jealous of seeing them happy together in the past. It is hard to digest the person I love, loving someone else once. @#%$&*^ I clearly know that everyone has a past & everyone loved someone in their past, plus every relationship is different ( diff ppl diff situation ). As long as my partner is loyal and love me nonetheless. - end of topic - 

50 random facts

I don’t know if these are interesting or not. But seriously, I’ve listed all random things that I know about myself. Here you go! XD

1. I hate my name but I love ‘M’. 
2. I can spend hours organizing things so that it looks like the way I want.
3. I love potatoes. Mashed/baked/fried/chipped/roasted.
4. Some call me weirdo, some call me psycho, some call me shy, and some even call me smart. =)
5. If you bully me then you’re simply giving me a chance to ignore you FOREVER.
6. I’m obsessed with lilac color.
7. My favorite number is ‘2’ since childhood.
8. My favorite weekday is “Friday”
9. I never stop Googling things. LOL
10. I hate writing but I love blogging. =)
11. I...don’t like religious talks & religious rituals.
12. I cut my nails really really short.
13. I wish I went to art school. =(
14. I love grocery shopping and I can spend hours in the store exploring new products.
15. I have no grammar skills. 
16. When anyone is late, I start to worry that something bad may have happened.
17. I love Christmas season. =)
18. I hate teppanyaki.
19. I hate the taste of beer.
20. I love Starbucks.
21. I love to travel. My goal is to visit one new country every year. =)
22. I love McD.
23. I dislike yellow color.
24. I am possessive. What's mine is mine. Especially the people I claim mine.
25. I love bubbles.
26. I have trust issues. I push people away because I want to test them.
27. I overthink things toooo much!
28. I don't like caramel.
29. I love sirloin steak.
30. I love horror film.
31. I love nail polish, but half the time I'm too lazy to paint my nails.
32. I have a reallyyy hard time falling asleep at night.
33. My dream vacation is to go to Santorini.
34. I don't really like Italian food.
35. I love the beach but I can't swim.
36. My blood type is O+
37. I love unicorn.
38. I’m terrified of lizards.
39. Music with loud bass makes me happy. =)
40. I'm an extremely sensitive person.
41. I like to be different from everyone else.
42. I love anything that glows in the dark!
43. I love playing with legos.
44. I dislike cats.
45. I try to be myself all the time, but sometimes I feel like their is a different version of myself for every person in my life...
46. My favorite late night snack is noodle soup.
47. When I feel sad, I create art.
48. I forgive but I never forget.
49. I love steamboat. =D
50. I don't like strawberry flavored milk.

青春，就是用来怀念的。

对很多人而言，不管隔了多久，想起学生时代的青春期记忆，心情都还是有点小悸动。即便是那些年听过的歌曲也像烙在心里似的，有时候光是响起音乐的前奏就足以勾起以往的回忆。记得在上学的时候，老师常说现在你们觉得很辛苦，但以后会非常留恋。当时不是特别明白，因为整天面临的是各种写不完的作业，就觉得上学好累，想要尽早投入工作，一直到自己毕业踏入社会工作之后，才真正的意识到学生时代的美好，又怀念起校园时光。

以前的我们都会梦想将来自己能做什么，对于未来充满憧憬，认为只要自己下定决心努力去做，终究会有实现的一天。无奈出社会后才发现，原来当时只要把念书的本份做好就可以得到奖赏，长大却是做好了本份也还是不够，野心和梦想也逐渐变小。。。

 

学生时代，那些零碎又清晰的片段伴我走过数年，再怎么怀念都回不去，就是因为回不去了，所以才会更想念。。。

Who's most important?

BOYFRIEND ? BEST FRIEND?

My answer is definitely...boyfriend! Well, in some ways yes and in some ways no. =D If you spend to much time with your friends your boyfriend might get annoyed. However, a long time friendship is more important than some guy you've been dating for couple weeks & a long time boyfriend is certainly more important than a new friend. Even though they say that boys come & go but friends will always stay but in my life, my boyfriend is the one who has been there for me thru everything. He's my best friend. When you truly love somebody, they become the most important person in the world to you. =)

pray for mom

Life is unpredictable...be always prepared for the best and the worst...

I mean it...

I must admit dat my attitude is ruining my relationship... I have a bad attitude and get veryyy grumpy over the dumbest things. I get really annoyed at the simplest things... I am sooo sorry, I don't know what is up with me. 1 min we are all having fun then the next minute you're apologizing for something you said because I get upset. Sorry dear, I feel really bad for you because you still stick with me and being so patient with me, especially when I'm being stubborn & refuse to admit I'm wrong ( even though I'm definitely wrong ). My relationship needs this change otherwise its gonna crumble even more than it already is =( 

eat less, move more!

The only thing that could bring me any joy is tasting good food. *drooling* So I ate desserts. I drank choc beverages. I ate until I was stuffed to the point of barely being able to move and NOWWW... here I am, with almost 49kg!!! In less than 1 month. That's just pathetic!! *FML* Recently I started doing light exercise again. It reminded me of how muchhh better I feel when I exercise. Now I just need to kick this junk food habit. I want to be fit and in shape like I once was.

PANDORA wishlist

If you know me well, you will know how obsessed I am with Pandora. I've been browsing thru the website and some of their charms caught my eyes. I list down some of my fav charms that I found from Pandora and I'll buy it! *grin*

Stunning love charm ♥

OMFG! It's unicorn!! I believe that anything coming out of unicorns will result in something magical.

I’ll be honest and say that I’m actually not overly keen on the two pavé Mickey & Minnie charms BUT I’ve always preferred the more abstract representations of the 2 characters. =)

Do you have boyfriend requirements list?

Nah! just admit it, we’ve all done it! LOL We’ve all made a list of what we’re looking for in a guy. Sometimes the requirements are simple and sometimes the list is slightly insane. XD

Here is my list: ( don't laugh XD )

1. Must be smart. Not necessarily super smart BUT smart enough. ( at least smarter than me )
2. Must never ever be flirtatious.
3. Must be super spontaneouslyyy romantic.
4. Says goodnight every night and I love you everyday without being annoying.
5. Understands me even thought I make no sense.
6. Would sing to me.
7. Must taller than me.
8. Likes to get out and play sports or do fun things. ( It's bored to date someone who has no fun or doesn't want to get out and enjoy life. )
9. Have a cute smile. =)
10. Must love animals.

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YOU meet the requirements ♥ 

you are my type ♥ 

I'm bored!

I'm so bored... Everything just repeats itself. I've always had a hard time connecting with peoples. Things like "hanging out" with others actually does not appeal to me EVEN with people I like...I just find everything pointless. Soooo pointless and that is quite annoying. I go to work and pull pranks on co-workers, I go home and spend time with my mom with a forced grin. Anyone who knows me would tell you I'm a lil shy and lil strange but I have a great sense of humor =) and when I go out you are guaranteed to have a good time. I honestly don't understand what I am missing in life. In short, I find life boring...

好想你 好想你 ♬

What's wrong with me?

I dream every night, sometimes 2 to 3 dreams. I remember all of it and when I wake up I feel like I've actually been doing what I was dreaming and are exhausted when I finally wake up. If I go to bed early, I have more dreams, if I go to bed late, I'll only have 1 or 2 but I'm still tired from not enough sleep. Last night I had the most vivid dreams. I remember them all pretty clearly, like memories...This is really driving me crazy! Dear mind, please stop thinking too much at night, I need to sleep! I need a proper rest!

Hey can I borrow some money? Sorry, I'm broke!

I hate borrowing money from friends or anyone in general because I hate the fact that I owe someone money. I don't like to have any money matters with friends and I hate 99% of people who borrow money. But it all depends on the amount they're asking for. If the person repays me back then I may consider doing it again, but if they fail to pay me back as they say they would. Sorry! I'll make an excuse the next time they ask again.

I have a friend and she moved to new place with almost no money in her bank acc. She declared she didn't have enough money to eat and I lend her money BUT at the same time she was blowing tons of money, Facebook post " Yeah! I'm going on vacation " !!!!! Buys Starbucks in the morning, MCD in the evening, Starbucks again at night and then has another meal after that. Seriously WTF?? I've had one repayment, the rest have stalled, never ever again!!! Hey girl, you should only borrow money if you ABSOLUTELY NEED it for survival. I've even had a friend who borrowed money from me to buy a gold pendant for her lover. You strained our friendships because you don't have the ability to pay me back. These people are totally irresponsible and no intention of paying money back. 

I've come across people who borrow some money from me, and they NEVER EVER pay it back. They are ALWAYS in a bad financial situation and can't pay me back for whichever reason. But on the other hand they are going out for fun. People like this piss me off!! I was working to pay loan, water, food, gas, phone credit etc. all completely on MY OWN, no help whatsoever!

Boys are NOT ATM!

I see that many girls think that their boyfriend is their ATM card and they never pay the bills at restaurants or for any other purchases. Oh well if money is the most you see in him, don't be shocked if sex is all he sees in you. I once had a friend who borrowed money from friends to buy a branded stuff for ''his'' gf. It's horribly detestable when girls demand gifts from boys especially in the case where both parties are still not working and still getting allowances from their parents. if I were the guy, I'd rather give that money to my parents so they won't have to work so hard. Girls always say that they like to be treated like princesses BUT.. boys like to be pampered too!!! If you want to be treated like a princess, ask yourself if you are treating your man like someone who is worthy of a princess or not. A healthy relationship would be a Princess & a Prince, NOT a Princess & a slave/dog.

原来你是我最想留住的幸运

原来你是 我最想留住的幸运

原来我们 和爱情曾经靠得那么近

那为我对抗世界的决定 那陪我淋的雨

一幕幕都是你 一尘不染的真心

Since the day we became friends almost five months ago.

I felt lucky to have the privilege of knowing you. 

You are such a special person. 

Thank you for being the first person I call when anything happens

Thank you for always being there when I need you and for making my life a better one to have. 

No matter what and through everything I will be there and I will love you just as I always have. 

XOXO

Thoughts on...marriage

Someone once told me that women shouldn't get married till they are ''mature enough''. Actually get married early or not is basically based on your own opinion and on whether do you truly unds what is love and what is marriage for. I have some friends who think that they shouldn't get married at all. They rather live with the one they love. Personally I think the ''points'' to consider whether to get married or not is do you know your partner well enough? do you really love her/him? and why do you want to commit to this person? 

Marriage isn't like a fairy tales and it's not just a relationship but also a social responsibility after all. Most people like to make promises impulsively. They promise this & that but in the end...they failed to do so. Marriage life is like...binding ourselves with both our families. This is really something you should consider before deciding you should get married or not? The very thing that couples always quarrel about is money. Money is a big part about reality. It's ain't easy to support each other and don't care about yourself but your family when you're cash tight. For an example, if you only have RM200 to survive for the month, would you rather starve and let your lover eat? Seriously...talk is easy, but action is hard. You need to be ready to face all challenges. You need to know how to love before marriage and face challenges together. Love only becomes love and relationship really stables when you see change and sacrifice.

Christmas countdown

I am one of the million of people who loves Christmas so much ♥. If you love Christmas I am sure you're counting down the days and can't wait to hug the Christmas spirit. The beautiful time is not far away now, you know Christmas is just around the corner when you feel you are able to love everybody and feel everybody loves you lol. Shopping for friends in this season is extremely exciting and what is even more exhilarating is trying to keep their presents a secret from them. I love Christmas not just because of the presents but because of all the fairy lights, decorations and the warmth of the season. ♥

chocolate bar message

Please take some TIME OUT to read this, you're God's MARVELOUS CREATIONS and you're amazingly sweet like CARAMEL. I never thought I'd found a man that SNICKERS me so much. Thank you for bringing so much JOY into my life. Sometimes I act like I'm from Mars but you still make me feel EXTRA special. You make me wanna put you on the TOP of my world. xoxo KISSES 

我的少女时代

这部电影情节完全出乎我的预料。从来沒有一部电影让我看完回家的途中哭笑不得，电影剧情明明很简单，也容易让人联想起 ‘‘ 那些年，我們一起追的女孩 ’’，却比 ‘‘ 那些年，我們一起追的女孩 ’’ 更能感动我。我们都曾想过自己喜欢的人有沒有可能也喜欢自己？想伸手抓住爱情却感到迷惘害怕，觉得幸运怎么会发生在自己身上，直到错过以后才发现你喜欢的人也曾深深为你着迷，怎么可能不感动，又怎么可能不难过？'' 我的少女時代 '' 不单彻底勾起了青春的回忆，也勾起了那些关于'' 初恋 '' 的苦涩和后悔。也许青春注定要为了某个人闪闪发光，就算闪的是淚光，也不想抹掉这一段记忆。=）

screw you...FLU!

I really hate the flu, because of flu makes me hard to breathe & hard to sleep, and it would make my nose stuffy.. FML !!! Flu is also taking a long time for recover .. now I'm hard for sleep because of you FLU! seriously... I hate you FLU.. you shall go out from my nose! I need a smooth breathing grrrr... 

Happy monthsary ♥

I'm so glad that we did it again =) It is not very long since I have known you, but you have changed me & my life after. I have given you the best position in my heart & my life. Though it has not been long but still we have been so close to each other in just a short span of time. I hope to have a veryyy loving & long life with you, and I hope you feel the same for me. The one thing I love most about you is that smile of yours. First time I saw it I fell madly in love with your eyes, smile, laugh & personality. I hope I get the chance to meet you someday *oops! my secret has been revealed* I beg to God bless our relation always, and hope that whatever argument we're having, you're still there for me, holding on.. I keep praying and I'm hoping that everything will be alright. I'm so sorry for all those aches and disappointments I’d done.. and thank you so much for everything you'd done. I love you always Leslie. xoxo

November 2015

Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can can start from now and make a brand new ending. New month, new day, new date, new chapter, new page, new wishes! 

Welcome November!

Paranormal Activity : The Ghost Dimension

Trailer :

Paranormal Activity 6 - The Ghost Dimension 

New house, happy family and...an old camera? We can see ghosts thru it....and this time, they're in 3D!!! people are more afraid of what they can't see then what they can see, seeing a child being pulled up by an invisible entity or doors slamming shut by themselves is a lot more frightening than a big black substance flying towards the camera which is how the demon (Toby) is represented in this film. I've seen all of these films in theaters and sorry to say this is the worst ... not comparable with the earlier version. =X